i back home and sitting on the chair
i feel stress that humans telling me that they reading my blog or like that
so sometimes want to run
and not want to know those
because i don't write these for them
why they like my words
i think it is because want to feel how me is lonely and a sad creature, despair and see it
and they cannot help me
because they are not my person
they only makes my feel lonely in the end
but those creatures really cannot understand those
and even if i would tell whys, they would think or say, why not, why bad why
so just
leave me please
leave me please to the humans who is not my person
because i need is only my person
i don't want to share the things with not my person that much
it is meaningless thing for me
not want to show the things to others
not want to hear words from others to what i said on here too
i am talking alone
and to only my person
sometimes to jason and other creatures
not to them
not for helping them to feel better to know that there is like this sad creature
i am not a contents for them
i don't want to be
i hate this so very much
but i have not my person so cannot talk to anybody and i have to keep talking
if i stop, i would forget how to write in english too
i think i should keep writing something alone
sadly cannot get interested in other's lifes that much too
i don't want to hear they had fun with their friends, or like that kind of things too
i feel lonely that me has nobody always
they want to add me to something
even if they would want only me or need, i don't believe those too
most of creatures would lie to me
it is just for at the moment thing too
for having my interests for them
and then i have to feel anxiety with those creatures
they are not forever person for me
they will change something
most of humans who would want to connect with me, it is because they feel lonely so very much and have nobody to talk to or like that
i think there is
if they would try to find
even if i could make them to not feel lonely, because how me is, they cannot make me feel not lonely just how they are
so why i would help them
help me
i need a help
why me is the one..
someone like
listen for them
i be like that after all to the creatures
and then, they would tell me like they can talk to me easily or feel want to talk to you
how about me
i don't want to talk to them
i cannot feel they are listening to me too
so i just would keep listening for them
and won't talk
because not want to feel that nobody listens to me
i know what they would want and need
why nobody can know what i would want and need
i am tired of those creatures
humans are after all themselves
think about themselves most
me too
but i can notice many things than those creatures
what others would feel if i would say something
what others would think if i would do these
they would not think about those things that much
but maybe it is the natural them
or maybe me think too much
and it is always not correct thing too
i would misunderstood a lot
but....ffwkljgeagoeuawjig
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gjewkahres
humans are troublesome
me is not someone who can keep caring those creatures
i cannot get interested in them
they are not different creature to me
even if they would say, they are different from others and feel those
but to me, i know someone like them already..
not different..
i want to meet to a person who is very different from others
i want to get interested in a person again
but i like to know the whys
but after know others whys, those were almost what i expected
but they don't like me think they are same with others
they can be different to other humans, but to me, they are all same
only my person can be different
my person and me is meant to be together in this world
there was many things in my life
but in the end i want to be with my person
me is not only one
who feels these
because my person also feel these
and feel lonely too
i want my person to keep be safe and be fine
i miss you so very much
i want hughug
ω・｀)🐻