I really hate that there is only like that one 

I have to depend on mom and live 

But what she will do is cruel

Today she walked so fast and left me alone 

Because angry 

I walked alone the outside and back home

She shut the door even if me was there 

She will angry soon at me

Just ask something 

She will angry 

Never be kind to me

If I don't be 

Even if I would ask nicely 

She will have a bad face 

I cannot have what I need and want without the parents 

That is why I would be normal to them soon 

But each time I thought not wants to be born if I have to be treated like that by mom

And me is alone 

If there was not like that one 

I feel so sad and bad about it

This is why I want my person too

Because I really hate mom in me many things 

And these happens makes me wasn't to wish her die soon 

I cannot feel anything even if it happens when I feel this now 

Later I don't know 

But I wanted to die so very much 

I feel cold in my life 

I have nobody who I can trust 

Even the parents would do like this thing to me 

I think she did those when I was little too 

Leave me alone when I made her angry 

And I am scared alone 

If I don't be good 

I would be alone 

There is nobody else who would help me 

Drink alcohol and say you are drunk then angry too 

Not drunk at all

But she is 

Drunk humans will say those always 

I don't want to talk with mom

But I would 

Because there is nobody else for me 

I do really hate this life 

I hate all other humans so very much too 

They will always changes

I will be alone always 

Because they will definitely leave me alone 

Change the mind, make an excuse 

When they are sad

Then the they will leave me alone 

Even if I would believe the person 

What they did is those 

I do really not have any who I can trust 

Nobody let me 

Nobody showed me it 

I don't like this life 

That I have to need someone like that creatures 

But I never needed and wanted such creatures 

Just it is what I saw in my life 

I want to know it is just I never met to my person yet 

My person is different 

My person won't do such things like others did to me 

But I am tired 

I am not sure if I could trust a human again in my life

I just want to die

Often I think so

Because I don't need anything anymore

If I cannot have like that person

And know there is not 

See same thing always 

And disappointed 

Despair

I am very tired of those 

Humans are really disgusting creatures 

I hate their heart and brain 

The thoughts 

Everything 

I cannot like those 

I wanted to have more good parent 

Mother or father 

Whichever a good parent for me

Why 

When I am grow, why they want me to change something and think it's normal thing in this world 

I wanted one good person from the beginning who would keep care about me since me was a baby 

And then not have to be separate with the person 

Also not have to do these things 

Like waiting for something 

Which I don't know if I could have or not in the end 

My person isn't certain creature 

I didn't have to do these if there was a person who would care about me since me was little to now 

I didn't need anybody else 

To mom, I don't know why me was so stick to mom and moms girl 

Maybe she scared me a lot like today 

She tell me something which would hurt me too

And not tried to help me to fix my complex too

Always had a bad face to me 

Only when she feels good or have good mode 

She wouldn't be bad to me 

I'm tired to care bout those 

Mom's faces 

I like to be alone in my room

I hate to hear her