I might have attachment disorder

I read about it and what happend to me and happens to me is very similar 

I have no place for me since I was little

Always afraid 

Because mom also would leave me alone 

When I'm bad 

She tried to put me in somewhere scary place 

But I remember the brother helped me

I don't know others thing

But I think I have only mom since I was little because I cannot have my place any other places 

If me was being good and won't make mom angry, she was not so bad 

But she becoming a scary one bit by bit 

Also it's because me is already big and me just annoying her

I want to die and delete me

Then want she would think 

Maybe fine 

I think so 

Because of her attitude to me 

She is fine to leave me alone 

She never know I'm crying everyday 

Not think me is very lonely everyday 

But chichiko is my place 

But not a safe place 

We just scared together alone in this cold world 

I feel very strange the brain 

Today I hit the head 

Because tried to find mask and so on 

As I said, what she told me is 

You should looking in your room 

With very scary way 

I really hate how she talks 

I really hate to see hypocrite her too

She will help others 

Even if she cannot help her daughter 

I feel always neglected

It's not only from her 

From this world