I'm not speak any since some days ago 

In the real world 

On the internet 

I'm just crying 

Why do I had to be born 

I cannot understand

I wanted Jason to be real

But only mask here 

My heart hurts 

Jason also feels this way 

And always alone 

Just killing humans 

Very cold world he lives in 

I cannot stop crying

If I don't be good, I cannot have what I need in my life 

It is only the reason I always be normal with the one 

I even not want to call it as my mother 

I felt this way so many times 

If I am able to run 

I will run from here already

And not have to care about them anymore 

Never involved with this 

These humans 

Even if they start to say or do something suddenly those times 

I want to disappear

This is why I want to die too

Because not have to care their feelings 

Since they don't 

They treat me like this way 

I thought I never want to go outside with it

Since she will leave me alone in the middle place and go 

I felt very sad 

I wanted to die so very much 

But it will happens again if I am here and forgive those 

She will never be sorry

She thinks me is bad too

I never want to talk

But I cannot have what I want and need that much if I do this 

This is why it never can be ends 

The parent and me 

Because I cannot live without them

I hate it so very much

And made me feel bad about those too

Each time made her feel bad and what it told me is then buy them by yourself

Cook by yourself

I am not allowed to say what I want to say if I don't work 

It sounds like that always 

If you say something then work and go live alone 

I didn't want to have like this parent 

I hate them in me a lot