they like tthis too
i bought tons 🍕🍕🍕🍕🍕🍕🍕🍕🍕🍕🍕🍕🍕
maybe 35
but i feel a bit sorry to the person who i said strong and bad things which would hurt the person
i said something to the person who sent me a message today and said they might be my person and so on a lot of things
and seemed read the profile too
but i said so terrible thing and blocked
i think me had no good feelings that time and i was irritated too
but i think i couldn't think that person is my person in me at all sadly
even if i didn't know about the person that much though
i saw that person's picture and felt it is not
i think they shouldn't use the pictures if they don't want me to judge them by the picture
because those pictures could tell something too
and there was nothing bio and there was only that picture and said
you look like chubby jesus
and that person said something it is not nice to say flejkageiowajkew or like that things to me (´・ω・｀)
i said what i thought to the person honestly
because he looked like chubby jesus
and seemed someone who i can beat just one punch too
✊´・ω・｀✊
i am very strong
i cannot be with a weak person more than me
because me is strong and i will be strong more and more too
those humans should want weak creature i think
me is not ✊´・ω・｀✊
but i couldn't say sorry and just keep block
but i just thought i said bad thing and i just should have ignored like i do to all others
but that person gave me the secret codes and i read and wanted to say something
but that reply and the messages were boring as pack
so maybe it is okay thing (´・ω・｀)
but i don't want to hurt anybody like that way if i can
i said something to the person who sent me a message today and said they might be my person and so on a lot of things
and seemed read the profile too
but i said so terrible thing and blocked
i think me had no good feelings that time and i was irritated too
but i think i couldn't think that person is my person in me at all sadly
even if i didn't know about the person that much though
i saw that person's picture and felt it is not
i think they shouldn't use the pictures if they don't want me to judge them by the picture
because those pictures could tell something too
and there was nothing bio and there was only that picture and said
you look like chubby jesus
and that person said something it is not nice to say flejkageiowajkew or like that things to me (´・ω・｀)
i said what i thought to the person honestly
because he looked like chubby jesus
and seemed someone who i can beat just one punch too
✊´・ω・｀✊
i am very strong
i cannot be with a weak person more than me
because me is strong and i will be strong more and more too
those humans should want weak creature i think
me is not ✊´・ω・｀✊
but i couldn't say sorry and just keep block
but i just thought i said bad thing and i just should have ignored like i do to all others
but that person gave me the secret codes and i read and wanted to say something
but that reply and the messages were boring as pack
so maybe it is okay thing (´・ω・｀)
but i don't want to hurt anybody like that way if i can
i couldn't be kind
but i think it is better to be like this to the person who i cannot have a feeling or feel something from the person from the beginning
because others just would be kind and be friendly, but in the end, they would leave from them
and they won't be with you forever too
most of them could be like that
i hate the humans who gives me a kindness too
even if they cannot help me in the end
even if i write what i need and want
that is why i don't like others
but i don't hate them as human beings that much i think
not sure
most of them are gross is true
but some wouldn't be too bad creatures
and i will not mind if they won't try to close to me and touch me
i want them to have what they want in their life as well
phew (´・ω・｀)
i talked with mom a lot
i just listened to her a lot
and she seemed satisfied
but still seemed want me to there and said, it's okay if you keep open the door
but i wave the hands and back to my room
_(:3 」∠)_
i like mom
but i am tired a bit
but she talkes same things to me a lot
and seeems glad to talk
so i listened to her without say you talk same or like that
i tried my best to not make mom feel bad
also washed the dishes a lot
mom told me, we could go walk in the night when it is a good weather
it is because mom wants to be a bit healthy for something
because she would have something in the hospital soon
but i want mom to keep do those
but if i don't watch mom, she will stop do those things soon
like don't drink so much alcohol
she said she won't drink until the day
but i know, she cannot
so i said, it is okay, once a two days
not sure how to say
drink that day and next day don't an then next next day, you can drink again is better for you now
and we decided so
i hope she can keep do those
if i could keep be kind to mom, i think she can
because she needs someone who cares about i think
now she would start fall asleep i think
but mom is also kind too
even if she would be mean or not understand and listen to me
she is my mother
when i said, want to drink banana shake, she made it for me today too
there was no miuk and made with yoghourt and mom put lemon something in there and forgot about we used yoghourt instead of miuk
soo it was a bit sour (´・ω・｀) but i could drink banana shake
and i was glad
this house's mixer is almost broken
mom said if you want, buy it by yourself (´・ω・｀) i think i want it
but not sure
mom said keep it in my room or like that and not want to put it in my room
maybe just said meanie thing though (´・ω・｀)
i think i want to drink banana juice everyday, not juice shake
so tasty
but it must be good if i could make apple juice or like that by the fruits everyday too
such a dreamy life
everyday fruits juice in the morning or vegetable fruits juice
find a good recipe and make
it must be fun
these days are rainy ☔🐸 frog days
june is very rainy day
i hate that the washed clothes would be stinks (´・ω・｀)
but i don't hate rainy
but want sunny days sometimes too
want to open the window and feel those
oh no saboson
need to help saboson from there
i talked with mom a lot
i just listened to her a lot
and she seemed satisfied
but still seemed want me to there and said, it's okay if you keep open the door
but i wave the hands and back to my room
_(:3 」∠)_
i like mom
but i am tired a bit
but she talkes same things to me a lot
and seeems glad to talk
so i listened to her without say you talk same or like that
i tried my best to not make mom feel bad
also washed the dishes a lot
mom told me, we could go walk in the night when it is a good weather
it is because mom wants to be a bit healthy for something
because she would have something in the hospital soon
but i want mom to keep do those
but if i don't watch mom, she will stop do those things soon
like don't drink so much alcohol
she said she won't drink until the day
but i know, she cannot
so i said, it is okay, once a two days
not sure how to say
drink that day and next day don't an then next next day, you can drink again is better for you now
and we decided so
i hope she can keep do those
if i could keep be kind to mom, i think she can
because she needs someone who cares about i think
now she would start fall asleep i think
but mom is also kind too
even if she would be mean or not understand and listen to me
she is my mother
when i said, want to drink banana shake, she made it for me today too
there was no miuk and made with yoghourt and mom put lemon something in there and forgot about we used yoghourt instead of miuk
soo it was a bit sour (´・ω・｀) but i could drink banana shake
and i was glad
this house's mixer is almost broken
mom said if you want, buy it by yourself (´・ω・｀) i think i want it
but not sure
mom said keep it in my room or like that and not want to put it in my room
maybe just said meanie thing though (´・ω・｀)
i think i want to drink banana juice everyday, not juice shake
so tasty
but it must be good if i could make apple juice or like that by the fruits everyday too
such a dreamy life
everyday fruits juice in the morning or vegetable fruits juice
find a good recipe and make
it must be fun
these days are rainy ☔🐸 frog days
june is very rainy day
i hate that the washed clothes would be stinks (´・ω・｀)
but i don't hate rainy
but want sunny days sometimes too
want to open the window and feel those
oh no saboson
need to help saboson from there
I feel I did bad thing
But I cannot feel anything so maybe it's okay
This is for the right person
And I won't keep have anybody and have meaningless things together with me
All can go from me
But never back to me again
And me won't as well
I cannot give a kindness to meaningless creatures in my life
It will be for them too
okay now me and mom is fine
i did my best i think
and got the things i needed wanted too
so i am glad about it 👏⛄
but humans are very troublesome
but i will thank to mom about many things
it was not only her fault too
because i cannot be kind to her often
but im still sad in me what she did to me
this is why i know she is not my certain place as well
but i got tapioka cafe late x5 and some other good things today
and i can make tapioka coffee
i got coffee x2 too
some one looks so tasty
but it was super duper pooper heavy (´・n・｀)
i carried a lot today and thought my shoulder would get destroyed...
but could back home
and then
so i got banana too 🍌🍌🍌🍌🍌
and made banana ice and then do something to tapioka kun
and then did exercise
i think i did so much today
walked and carried incredible heavy bags and did the exercise
also i got something today and added the move for my exercise too
i think i can train my arms with it
and byebye to somewhat my fluffy arm? i hope so (´・ω・｀)
maybe i would have muscle pains tomorrow for sure
but i like train myself and wish me can be gooder
change myself in the way is what i can do
and what i want to do in this year
i don't want to stay in this place
i mean
this me
that fugly and fat and always saying those
i hate that me so very much
that give up soon and start eating many and then cannot be thin again..
over and over again (´・ω・｀)
but i tried to not get sweets today
even mom seemed she would get for me
i said no thank you
but i got one chocolate actually (´・ω・｀)
it is which i wanted to try to eat
so and oh some snacks too (´・ω・｀)
i will stop write about these now because i hate what saying and doing now
(´・ω・｀)
i did my best i think
and got the things i needed wanted too
so i am glad about it 👏⛄
but humans are very troublesome
but i will thank to mom about many things
it was not only her fault too
because i cannot be kind to her often
but im still sad in me what she did to me
this is why i know she is not my certain place as well
but i got tapioka cafe late x5 and some other good things today
and i can make tapioka coffee
i got coffee x2 too
some one looks so tasty
but it was super duper pooper heavy (´・n・｀)
i carried a lot today and thought my shoulder would get destroyed...
but could back home
and then
so i got banana too 🍌🍌🍌🍌🍌
and made banana ice and then do something to tapioka kun
and then did exercise
i think i did so much today
walked and carried incredible heavy bags and did the exercise
also i got something today and added the move for my exercise too
i think i can train my arms with it
and byebye to somewhat my fluffy arm? i hope so (´・ω・｀)
maybe i would have muscle pains tomorrow for sure
but i like train myself and wish me can be gooder
change myself in the way is what i can do
and what i want to do in this year
i don't want to stay in this place
i mean
this me
that fugly and fat and always saying those
i hate that me so very much
that give up soon and start eating many and then cannot be thin again..
over and over again (´・ω・｀)
but i tried to not get sweets today
even mom seemed she would get for me
i said no thank you
but i got one chocolate actually (´・ω・｀)
it is which i wanted to try to eat
so and oh some snacks too (´・ω・｀)
i will stop write about these now because i hate what saying and doing now
(´・ω・｀)
I know how to deal with troublesome humans
If I do need I will deal with them
Mom is one of the one
All the time 😒😠 this and this face have to me
But I can give a smile
For making it be normal
Totally like kiddo
But I know why she would be like that too
That is why I think she is poor
Because angry angry angry is not feel good
I feel those a lot too in my life
But if it was same creature
And if it was someone who I need in my life
I have to change as like a Cameleon and deal with them
I don't know since when she is like that
It seems she lived in an unfair world
So maybe she is like that
Difficult one
I know what kind of person me is and what others want me to do and deal with me
But it won't be what I want always
Because they don't know my how to book
But I know other humans how to book
And what would make them happy, unhappy
What would hurt them, not hurt
I thought so soemtiems
But I might don't know at all too
I just able to consider those things in my heard for each creatures
But maybe it be in a wrong way a lot too
Even if I would give a pencil to somebody and it was because they would be glad, but that person might be get angry and attack me too
Because had a really bad memory with the pencil and it reminded the person about those time
So we will never know first time
But able to know bit by bit if I would be with the person
What I should say, what I shouldn't say
But I'm so very tired of those
So I just won't do it
If I be like that, they would feel strange too
Because I would care about those things and I cannot tell anything in the end
Or each time I would put something Alfa words for the main talk and make it soft and never make the sounds strong
But those are very tire thing
And kinda fake too
I feel gross to be like that one
If it was not the time I wanted to be
Feel so bad
And be like that
Inside is very 😠
But show 😊
I can do it
But I feel so very gross in me and cannot keep do it
But if it was really really necessary for my life I would do
But there is not anymore since I don't live in the social world
But if I say those things I feel sorry to mom after all
Because I know why she was angry
Maybe still too
But she will never think about my sadness
And think 100% bad is me it seems
I know what she would say when I would show this
The time when she left me alone and walked away
What are you doing stupid
Don't do such stupid thing
Only that
Will tell me stupid for sure
I hate my life
That have to need someone like her
Or I cannot live normally
It will be more sad and bad life
She will be so cold to me
Like ignore me
Never answer me
Even if I would ask, she will say something with so scary voice
And tell me she hates me with the voice
When I went and tried to be normal
She said don't touch me in a really bad way
I cannot express it with English at all
How she talks so bad to me
But I think she is a poor human
Failed parent
They think about themselves more than the kiddos
It might be common thing in this world sadly
I'm so sorry for the kiddos who is abused right now
Neglected right now
I feel very sad to think those kiddos in this world
Because my parents are not good too
They are someone who hurt me a lot
But someone who I cannot say that much
Or left from them just because I hurt a lot
Since they are my parents who taking care of me
Even if they don't want to do anymore and want me to die
I might have attachment disorder
I read about it and what happend to me and happens to me is very similar
I have no place for me since I was little
Always afraid
Because mom also would leave me alone
When I'm bad
She tried to put me in somewhere scary place
But I remember the brother helped me
I don't know others thing
But I think I have only mom since I was little because I cannot have my place any other places
If me was being good and won't make mom angry, she was not so bad
But she becoming a scary one bit by bit
Also it's because me is already big and me just annoying her
I want to die and delete me
Then want she would think
Maybe fine
I think so
Because of her attitude to me
She is fine to leave me alone
She never know I'm crying everyday
Not think me is very lonely everyday
But chichiko is my place
But not a safe place
We just scared together alone in this cold world
I feel very strange the brain
Today I hit the head
Because tried to find mask and so on
As I said, what she told me is
You should looking in your room
With very scary way
I really hate how she talks
I really hate to see hypocrite her too
She will help others
Even if she cannot help her daughter
I feel always neglected
It's not only from her
From this world
my mom is really like yakuza so bad words she uses
and have really bad attitude to me
but i tried my best to be normal with her
but she really won't try
but i have to endure with it
for making everything works well again
because i cannot have what i want and ask if me and she was bad friends
i really hate this
and i don't understand why me is only one who is bad
she just got angry so hard suddenly and walked away from me and leave me alone in the outside
i really hate these things
if i lived alone, i didn't have to try to close to her again and i don't care she hates me forever or not
so troublesome
but i can never show this
for making the things good
it is so very troublesome (=_=) mom have this face even if i would tried
but me is the one who wants to have it
in me i have
it feels like im talking to kiddo
i really hate someone like her troublesome creature
not like mother at all
and have really bad attitude to me
but i tried my best to be normal with her
but she really won't try
but i have to endure with it
for making everything works well again
because i cannot have what i want and ask if me and she was bad friends
i really hate this
and i don't understand why me is only one who is bad
she just got angry so hard suddenly and walked away from me and leave me alone in the outside
i really hate these things
if i lived alone, i didn't have to try to close to her again and i don't care she hates me forever or not
so troublesome
but i can never show this
for making the things good
it is so very troublesome (=_=) mom have this face even if i would tried
but me is the one who wants to have it
in me i have
it feels like im talking to kiddo
i really hate someone like her troublesome creature
not like mother at all
this mom is kind
i wanted like this mom
https://h-navi.jp/column/article/35027109
but im not sure if i have ADHD
i might have it
it seems there is 3
category
i think im not austin but i might have like that ADHD or something
or not have those
even if i had those so what too
there is nothing cure about it
i hate my brain
i wanted like this mom
https://h-navi.jp/column/article/35027109
but im not sure if i have ADHD
i might have it
it seems there is 3
category
i think im not austin but i might have like that ADHD or something
or not have those
even if i had those so what too
there is nothing cure about it
i hate my brain
I cannot stand with the clothes tag
But mom won't cut for me
So I did it by myself then I cut the clothes (´・n・｀)
But I fixed it
But messy
I took off most of clothes tags
It killed the time somewhat
(´・ω・｀)
I hate that tags
It makes my body so itchy
How others can be normal
What kind of iron body they have
(´・ω・｀)
I sometimes feel strange like me is a man or like that
Especially when I hear music
Like avenged sevenfold
But also linkin park too
It is like me is the singer
And act same like them
And I feel me is a male more
But when I see the mirror, just a poo is there
It's me
Yupoo 💩
They have what I don't have
But I feel I have those when I hear the songs
So maybe it can be bad also good
Because something changing in me those times
Soon I can back to me and feel how me is just yupoo 💩
I can feel me is strong somewhat those times
Legend time
I don't know who is me sometimes
And who I should be
But after all all me
I almost everyday watching ramram music videos when I do exercise for some years already
I really never changed since the time I started to do with it
They give me a power to punch hard too
And there is already steps which I decided and it never changed too
So do same thing everyday
But I increased the numbers I must do
Punch x80 right x80 and left x80 in the song
Like that
Before it was 60 times
Maybe I should add on more song and do more
It's good thing for me that there is the steps which decided
And never changes
If something changes one, I feel bad I think and the Rhythm would be not good
I inputted I must do the move for each songs
I won't change
Because troublesome to find good thing too
Same is fine
But this is me
That cannot notice to better thing
And being so grandma in this world
There would be many things I don't know but good and better things more than the things I'm using now too
Everything surprising me when I see such things
Such high-tech things
I couldn't know those trend things and so on at all because I didn't watch anything like hikakintv also didn't check on anything that much
But hikakintv teaching me many things I think
But I'm watching from very old one
So me just know 2015 years time trend well I think
I hope I can reach to 2020 someday soon
maybe during the tomato days, its okay to eat a lot
because the body needs
but after ends and till next tomato days i should control
female body is really troublesome
my place is hurts nowadays too
so i can know tomato days is close to me bit by bit
many places starts hurt before the days most of the time
because the body needs
but after ends and till next tomato days i should control
female body is really troublesome
my place is hurts nowadays too
so i can know tomato days is close to me bit by bit
many places starts hurt before the days most of the time
lighter
average
fat level 1
fat level 2
fat level 3
fat level 4
when i search BMB BMI?
yes BMI
me was fat level 1
so need to lose 11 or 12 kg and then i can be average it saying
so me is not tooooo fat then?
i don't know
around the tummy, it is too fluffy
like doughnuts around me
but i wanted to lose 15 kg
so i could be average then
gogo me
i want to hate sweets and ignore the hunger (´・ω・｀)
average
fat level 1
fat level 2
fat level 3
fat level 4
when i search BMB BMI?
yes BMI
me was fat level 1
so need to lose 11 or 12 kg and then i can be average it saying
so me is not tooooo fat then?
i don't know
around the tummy, it is too fluffy
like doughnuts around me
but i wanted to lose 15 kg
so i could be average then
gogo me
i want to hate sweets and ignore the hunger (´・ω・｀)
i actually didn't know why hikakin is so famous and so on until some month or weeks ago
but now i can understand because watched a lot of his videos
what he did is
Everyday upload the video
And showed his beatbox, which he kept practice every every everyday since he was junior high school? i think
even while eating foods
his elder brother talking about those
It telling everyone how he is someone who will hard work, hard study?
for being better
like that person can stay in like this place
is very normal
this world needs the result
oh it seems it was since an elementary school student..
now i heard that he talking about it
i will be sorry that i thought what is this ugly guy
why he is famous?
because he was on the CM a lot before on TV and i didn't know about him at all
and thought just what is this creep or like that
i don't like about him as a male or my person
but i can give him a clapclap 👏⛄clapclappie you did a good job, give me some moneys
i think his brother is a good person too
also i said what is this creepy face or like that about the brother too
more than this one hikakin
because his face is really strange
but now he is just a good pappie it seems
i think he is a kind person, that is why he could get marry and got the kiddo i think
maybe the kiddo could be happy in the house
since they are rich too
and seemed they care the kiddos and give the best things
but maybe the wife would be worry about many things
not sure, seems she is not
because they will eat something too spicy thing and so on and almost vomit or like that
they do many dangerous thing for their body
i never want like that person for my partner for sure
someone who would make me worry so much
i would worry too much to death if they would do and it makes me very sad and i would cry
but his wife can stand with it it seems
maybe just how i feel the things and how she would feel and think is diffierent
i don't want my person to be an army too, and have some dangerous job
i don't want my person to be a doctor too, or someone who building the house person too
about the doctor, maybe many dangerous humans come and it is dangerous if they would give some sick to my person
about building the house, i cannnot be normal to think about bad happens
(´・n・｀) like the building destroyed suddenly and those walls stamped my person
what a sad
cannot be normal everyday
if my person had such a dangerous work
what else can be dangerous (´・ω・｀)🍥
i don't want my person to be a teacher too
because those kiddos has a sick and annoying
and it is dangerous that they would like about my person
or my person would like them
maybe i shouldn't say this, and i want to say that i trust my person though
i hate kiddos
they are creepy and dangerous creatures
like that (´・ω・｀) what a dangerous world
someone who do their best in someway in this world can be helped in the future
and what is important is believe so
believe so and keep do
because if they don't believe it, or cannot, they already won't do anything
i still want to believe that me can be happy someday in the future
i feel like my left leg is already in the hell, but the right leg is in the bright place still
i feel those
this is why me is here still
if me was in all the hell, i don't have any hope or wish, want in this world
i want to be happie
i am bad that i mock the humans who has what they want and live strong
but the tempreture is so different with me
i want same tempreture person and have the happiness together
because if they have something they want and something which make them happy, then they should go and have it
not have to stay with me
those humans can be happy without me
i can not be happy without my person
real happiness is be with my person
it is my own happiness and have memories in this world until the end
me is very egoist
but i just want my person to live longer than me and not leave me alone in this world until the end
it is what i do really want
it is my happiness
i don't want to be alone
life
time
time never stops
everyday
every time
very mysterious
that i am still alive
im cried a bit
i hate this
that me crying soon
why me would cry so soon
around my heart feels hurts and something in my throat when i feel sad
i don't want to live fake
i want to live as me
but i want to be someone who can live more well in this world
because all the time honest with my feelings, never can live in this world
sometimes i have to change the feelings
but i feel those are lies
i don't like lie to my feelings
but i hate my feelings sometimes
because those feelings was not the right feelings
later i can notice
about mom too
i hate me say bad things about her
and call her bad names
but i am still angry inside
but i am just very sad too
because mom would be cold to me
i don't know
but everyday is not same is what i know
even if it seems same
but now i can understand because watched a lot of his videos
what he did is
Everyday upload the video
And showed his beatbox, which he kept practice every every everyday since he was junior high school? i think
even while eating foods
his elder brother talking about those
It telling everyone how he is someone who will hard work, hard study?
for being better
like that person can stay in like this place
is very normal
this world needs the result
oh it seems it was since an elementary school student..
now i heard that he talking about it
i will be sorry that i thought what is this ugly guy
why he is famous?
because he was on the CM a lot before on TV and i didn't know about him at all
and thought just what is this creep or like that
i don't like about him as a male or my person
but i can give him a clapclap 👏⛄clapclappie you did a good job, give me some moneys
i think his brother is a good person too
also i said what is this creepy face or like that about the brother too
more than this one hikakin
because his face is really strange
but now he is just a good pappie it seems
i think he is a kind person, that is why he could get marry and got the kiddo i think
maybe the kiddo could be happy in the house
since they are rich too
and seemed they care the kiddos and give the best things
but maybe the wife would be worry about many things
not sure, seems she is not
because they will eat something too spicy thing and so on and almost vomit or like that
they do many dangerous thing for their body
i never want like that person for my partner for sure
someone who would make me worry so much
i would worry too much to death if they would do and it makes me very sad and i would cry
but his wife can stand with it it seems
maybe just how i feel the things and how she would feel and think is diffierent
i don't want my person to be an army too, and have some dangerous job
i don't want my person to be a doctor too, or someone who building the house person too
about the doctor, maybe many dangerous humans come and it is dangerous if they would give some sick to my person
about building the house, i cannnot be normal to think about bad happens
(´・n・｀) like the building destroyed suddenly and those walls stamped my person
what a sad
cannot be normal everyday
if my person had such a dangerous work
what else can be dangerous (´・ω・｀)🍥
i don't want my person to be a teacher too
because those kiddos has a sick and annoying
and it is dangerous that they would like about my person
or my person would like them
maybe i shouldn't say this, and i want to say that i trust my person though
i hate kiddos
they are creepy and dangerous creatures
like that (´・ω・｀) what a dangerous world
someone who do their best in someway in this world can be helped in the future
and what is important is believe so
believe so and keep do
because if they don't believe it, or cannot, they already won't do anything
i still want to believe that me can be happy someday in the future
i feel like my left leg is already in the hell, but the right leg is in the bright place still
i feel those
this is why me is here still
if me was in all the hell, i don't have any hope or wish, want in this world
i want to be happie
i am bad that i mock the humans who has what they want and live strong
but the tempreture is so different with me
i want same tempreture person and have the happiness together
because if they have something they want and something which make them happy, then they should go and have it
not have to stay with me
those humans can be happy without me
i can not be happy without my person
real happiness is be with my person
it is my own happiness and have memories in this world until the end
me is very egoist
but i just want my person to live longer than me and not leave me alone in this world until the end
it is what i do really want
it is my happiness
i don't want to be alone
life
time
time never stops
everyday
every time
very mysterious
that i am still alive
im cried a bit
i hate this
that me crying soon
why me would cry so soon
around my heart feels hurts and something in my throat when i feel sad
i don't want to live fake
i want to live as me
but i want to be someone who can live more well in this world
because all the time honest with my feelings, never can live in this world
sometimes i have to change the feelings
but i feel those are lies
i don't like lie to my feelings
but i hate my feelings sometimes
because those feelings was not the right feelings
later i can notice
about mom too
i hate me say bad things about her
and call her bad names
but i am still angry inside
but i am just very sad too
because mom would be cold to me
i don't know
but everyday is not same is what i know
even if it seems same
i want a job that not need to meet to any piece of humans :i
and then i will never ask mom anything for my things and not have to deal with the angry ogre anymore
i have to be good after all
for having those things
those parents who would be mean to the kiddos and make the kiddos not able to ask something, they shouldn't made the kiddos from the beginning
and if me would say these, they just would think me is such an arrogant one or like that
maybe others too
but i think me is nothing bad
because there is no rule that we all kiddos must thank to the parents and be good and help them or like that
if they made me for those, then that is too bad that they made like this failed product
those parents who would made the kiddos feel they are failed product is already failed product
the parents are the failed human beings
that is why this kind of creatures would be born from them
there is many many kiddos who cannot have anything more than me and treated bad by the parents than me i know
i feel so very sorry to those creatuers
those kiddos parents would make the kiddos feel they are the failed product and useless
but those parents are really bad creatures
but sadly the parent's parent also did same thing mostly to them i guess
or just this world made them like that
i think this is really a sad thing
i know me cannot do anything very well and be useful for this world
cannot meet to the humans and be normal with them
even cannot have any communication with humans on the internet
and i am just a failed product, useless, worthless, then what others would think about me as
Just a trash
Trash
Who should leave from the world
I have no place in this world because me is this
But this is me
I couldn't be like others and do same thing like many of others do in this world and think it is the normal and must things
I don't think there is have to things or must things that much in this world
as like the parents not think they must take care of the creation they made forever until they can do
They always think the kiddos would be an adult and flying from the nest
but some kiddos cannot do those things
because of many reasons
some are just scared to flying from there
some are tried a lot and got hurt and not want to flying from the nest anymore again
some are just feel peace in the nest most and wish to stay there forever
many many reasons for the creatures who would be there
but those parents would push them to go from there
or scare them that not give you food, not give you what you want, just have it by yourself
when they became an adult, those parents would be like that mostly
I don't understand those things
and why it is the common thing
then this world is really a cold world
but me is the one who would wants to fly from this nest
this is why I would want to have my person
I want to find my nest where I don't have to leave from there anymore until the death
My parents are old too
They would leave from me if I could live longer
so after all they cannot be with me forever
maybe this is one of the reason the parents would want the kiddos to find the way to live in this world alone or be with somebody or be strong
but I cannot be strong enough for living in this world
Fight
fight in this world
it makes me very sad to imagine the things
i cannot talk
i am scared of the humans
i don't want to talk
i cannot be myself
i have to be another one
but it is really difficult for me most of the time
but there is no place where allow me to be me and me able to working
i don't know what should i do when i felt sad or those kind of feelings
because those are too strong and i cannot stand with it
i would want to run so soon
then what others would tell me
all others feel those too, but they fight for living
and i would say, then i want to die
then they would say, then go die
i think so too
someone like me never can live in this world well
so had better to just go kill myself
i even not believe so deeply about somebody would help me too
because all they have their own life and me is just a trash
who cares about such one
they just would tell me, there is no sweet world
you just want to be lazy
you just avoid all the things you don't want
then you have no permission to live in this world
i hear those things in my head
i know what others would think about me
it is what i think too
why someone like me have to think these and feel trashes
just because cannot live well like others
i am not wish to be lazy
if i can, i wanted to do the things
but i think i cannot find any meaning to do those things
because it hurts me
makes me sad
makes me sad and hurt and have something
i don't need it
what i want is not feel those things in this world and avoid and live peacefully
i don't want to see scary things
scary humans
not want to meet to scary humans who would angry at me
many suicide themselves because felt those
somebody would let them feel they are useless and worthless
and always they yell at them
and everyday go there
and then have moneys
is that really worth thing
i cannot think so
and those suicide humans also thought so i think
what they are doing
if they were someone who has no dreams, and even cannot have partner who they can love
they would feel so much despair in such a cold place
many dying by such things
why they live
is that for having a lot of hurts, stress sadness?
no
they wanted happiness
alllllllll want it
ALL WANT happiness
and they all deserve the happiness
there is many creatures or almost that who is not worth i give a happiness
but those humans also deserve happiness
this world is not good world
i feel sorry to the humans who has to do those things today
and live
and feel bad in their life
if there was no happiness in their life, they would get depressed
they want happiness and feel those
nobody live for feel bad in this world
now i still have the parents and able to live in this world
but there is many who cannot depend on anybody and live alone and feel those stress and sadness everyday
it must be so very terrible days
and i can image many humans dying
if there is no meaning for living in this world, they cannot live so strong
if there was no hobbies, their likes, they cannot live so strong
i hear everyday my mother's sigh
and complain about the things a lot
about the dad, brother, me, for everything
I hate it
i am tired
my head feels strange
Chichiko is always cute
Nowadays i put her next to me and showing the things which i am watching
and watch together the screen
i wouldn't show Jason killing scene though
like amazon items, and youtube videos
and the things i am searching and reading
she also seeing them with me
before i put her in bad place always and she couldn't see anything very well i think
i hope she is enjoying somewhat with me
i like hughug her
but when i am not clean enough, i feel a bit bad to hughug her
because i never want to make her messy
she never can take a shower too
but she is very cute today too, that wearing a cute cat hat and wearing some cat thing
daisuki chichiko 🐣🐻⛄
and then i will never ask mom anything for my things and not have to deal with the angry ogre anymore
i have to be good after all
for having those things
those parents who would be mean to the kiddos and make the kiddos not able to ask something, they shouldn't made the kiddos from the beginning
and if me would say these, they just would think me is such an arrogant one or like that
maybe others too
but i think me is nothing bad
because there is no rule that we all kiddos must thank to the parents and be good and help them or like that
if they made me for those, then that is too bad that they made like this failed product
those parents who would made the kiddos feel they are failed product is already failed product
the parents are the failed human beings
that is why this kind of creatures would be born from them
there is many many kiddos who cannot have anything more than me and treated bad by the parents than me i know
i feel so very sorry to those creatuers
those kiddos parents would make the kiddos feel they are the failed product and useless
but those parents are really bad creatures
but sadly the parent's parent also did same thing mostly to them i guess
or just this world made them like that
i think this is really a sad thing
i know me cannot do anything very well and be useful for this world
cannot meet to the humans and be normal with them
even cannot have any communication with humans on the internet
and i am just a failed product, useless, worthless, then what others would think about me as
Just a trash
Trash
Who should leave from the world
I have no place in this world because me is this
But this is me
I couldn't be like others and do same thing like many of others do in this world and think it is the normal and must things
I don't think there is have to things or must things that much in this world
as like the parents not think they must take care of the creation they made forever until they can do
They always think the kiddos would be an adult and flying from the nest
but some kiddos cannot do those things
because of many reasons
some are just scared to flying from there
some are tried a lot and got hurt and not want to flying from the nest anymore again
some are just feel peace in the nest most and wish to stay there forever
many many reasons for the creatures who would be there
but those parents would push them to go from there
or scare them that not give you food, not give you what you want, just have it by yourself
when they became an adult, those parents would be like that mostly
I don't understand those things
and why it is the common thing
then this world is really a cold world
but me is the one who would wants to fly from this nest
this is why I would want to have my person
I want to find my nest where I don't have to leave from there anymore until the death
My parents are old too
They would leave from me if I could live longer
so after all they cannot be with me forever
maybe this is one of the reason the parents would want the kiddos to find the way to live in this world alone or be with somebody or be strong
but I cannot be strong enough for living in this world
Fight
fight in this world
it makes me very sad to imagine the things
i cannot talk
i am scared of the humans
i don't want to talk
i cannot be myself
i have to be another one
but it is really difficult for me most of the time
but there is no place where allow me to be me and me able to working
i don't know what should i do when i felt sad or those kind of feelings
because those are too strong and i cannot stand with it
i would want to run so soon
then what others would tell me
all others feel those too, but they fight for living
and i would say, then i want to die
then they would say, then go die
i think so too
someone like me never can live in this world well
so had better to just go kill myself
i even not believe so deeply about somebody would help me too
because all they have their own life and me is just a trash
who cares about such one
they just would tell me, there is no sweet world
you just want to be lazy
you just avoid all the things you don't want
then you have no permission to live in this world
i hear those things in my head
i know what others would think about me
it is what i think too
why someone like me have to think these and feel trashes
just because cannot live well like others
i am not wish to be lazy
if i can, i wanted to do the things
but i think i cannot find any meaning to do those things
because it hurts me
makes me sad
makes me sad and hurt and have something
i don't need it
what i want is not feel those things in this world and avoid and live peacefully
i don't want to see scary things
scary humans
not want to meet to scary humans who would angry at me
many suicide themselves because felt those
somebody would let them feel they are useless and worthless
and always they yell at them
and everyday go there
and then have moneys
is that really worth thing
i cannot think so
and those suicide humans also thought so i think
what they are doing
if they were someone who has no dreams, and even cannot have partner who they can love
they would feel so much despair in such a cold place
many dying by such things
why they live
is that for having a lot of hurts, stress sadness?
no
they wanted happiness
alllllllll want it
ALL WANT happiness
and they all deserve the happiness
there is many creatures or almost that who is not worth i give a happiness
but those humans also deserve happiness
this world is not good world
i feel sorry to the humans who has to do those things today
and live
and feel bad in their life
if there was no happiness in their life, they would get depressed
they want happiness and feel those
nobody live for feel bad in this world
now i still have the parents and able to live in this world
but there is many who cannot depend on anybody and live alone and feel those stress and sadness everyday
it must be so very terrible days
and i can image many humans dying
if there is no meaning for living in this world, they cannot live so strong
if there was no hobbies, their likes, they cannot live so strong
i hear everyday my mother's sigh
and complain about the things a lot
about the dad, brother, me, for everything
I hate it
i am tired
my head feels strange
Chichiko is always cute
Nowadays i put her next to me and showing the things which i am watching
and watch together the screen
i wouldn't show Jason killing scene though
like amazon items, and youtube videos
and the things i am searching and reading
she also seeing them with me
before i put her in bad place always and she couldn't see anything very well i think
i hope she is enjoying somewhat with me
i like hughug her
but when i am not clean enough, i feel a bit bad to hughug her
because i never want to make her messy
she never can take a shower too
but she is very cute today too, that wearing a cute cat hat and wearing some cat thing
daisuki chichiko 🐣🐻⛄
i hate buying clothes and so on
but i bought because mom wouldn't buy me
i ordered pants a lot
i am not sure if i can wear or if it was too big size
(・へ・)
but this is cute
i have no courage to wear like this in the outside though
maybe in the room it is good
this cat's pants gone :i
disappear
i didn't want to ask
but i asked via the line
i made it for asking it
i don't know if she would read it or not
it is so meaningless phone, just for playing game phone
but i bought because mom wouldn't buy me
i ordered pants a lot
i am not sure if i can wear or if it was too big size
(・へ・)
but this is cute
i have no courage to wear like this in the outside though
maybe in the room it is good
disappear
i didn't want to ask
but i asked via the line
i made it for asking it
i don't know if she would read it or not
it is so meaningless phone, just for playing game phone
I had a headache after wokeup
I didn't want to wakeup
Wished me just died really
Everyday is like a shit
I had to do exercise so took medication and fixed the hurts
And done
But I am scared that a spider gone from the cage..
I found a big one yesterday and cought it but I cannot tell it to the bitch so I just leave it
I taped the cage with the tape too
But somehow it disappear when I see after wakeup and went to pee 😨😨😨😨😨😨
Why
W
How
How the spider can gone from there?
I cannot understand..
Before it happened too
Next day the spider gone.. even I cared neatly..
How
So scary spiders are..
I am sad that cannot deal with them alone too
And have to need the bitch
But it was not in my room so it was okay
And one more thing
My pants and my clothes not back after wash
But cannot ask it to the bitch
I really wonder where it go
Even if I would ask, it just would tell at me or say don't know
But really didn't back after washed
Masks too
What going on
I hate her so very much
I don't talk with anybody for someday because I don't talk with the bitch in this house too
But noticed I talked to chichiko everyday
So after all I'm speaking a bit
But it's Whisper
I say
Daisuki dayo chichiko
And like that kind of things
Zutto issyo too
Means we'll be together forever
If she was not with me, I already killed myself
I always think so
That chichiko helped me a lot
She is only one person who will never leave me alone
And she is forever only mine
I have only good mind towards to her
I feel lonely even if she is with me
But it is not her fault any piece of bit
Because she cannot move and talk to me
But what she can do is just exist and stay with me in my room
And won't go anywhere
And keep be only mine
Only my cute chichiko 👾🐻🐣
Very small she is
Forever small
Never changes anything
Comfortable with her
i like tapitapi so very mucho
want tons of tapitapi
but almost gone
and if i don't talk with mom, i canot get it means
:I
i hate this
it is good that mom buy those more
so
but i hate mom
(・へ・)
tapitapi
i wanted to live alone and me was rich
then i will cook for myself everyday
i think i can cook pretty well
and maybe i can be thinner more
because mom's meal is for pig
want tons of tapitapi
but almost gone
and if i don't talk with mom, i canot get it means
:I
i hate this
it is good that mom buy those more
so
but i hate mom
(・へ・)
tapitapi
i wanted to live alone and me was rich
then i will cook for myself everyday
i think i can cook pretty well
and maybe i can be thinner more
because mom's meal is for pig
i wanted to be another creature
if they don't have to feel like me
i cannot think there is more lonely creatures than me when i feel these
i feel so very alone
i cannot trust anybody
also cannot have anything i want
nobody would like about me
in the way i want the person to like about me
it can be easy thing
to have a person who would get interested in me, it is just some days though
and have the like from them
but those likes are not the like i want
it is not
it makes me feel lonely more
to feel
they would give me a bit of like and like that feelings
and then i would like them
but bit by bit would know about them
and know those were not the things i wanted
which could fill me
fill my heart
i feel nobody knows how i could like about the person
i live with my honest feelings
and i am have been told that you'd be alone
because there is not like that person
not exist
even if there was, that person would want good thing and not you
others told me these a lot to me when they open the mouth
what is bad and strange
i am wanting a person to not feel lonely and be alone anymore in this world
not just friends who share the time sometimes
i want full things with my person
it makes me happy
i don't want my person to have a time with others
it makes me lonely and very scared
all the humans who i was with in the real world
all had others
each time scared when they go to another
and me be alone
when the person would not come to the school, i would be alone
always had to find my place where i can be
but i couldn't select the person in such small place
i felt scared always in me
anxiety about being alone
because those places are scary place for me
being alone means, others think me is strange
it was what i was afraid too
even if i would want one person who would stay with me since me was little
i couldn't have
all changed and gone, lied to me
but these are enough and whatever already
they think they can change the person anytime
the partner for the life
and it is a normal thing for them
and just think it was a good memories or like that
i never thought those
i didn't want to have any memories with the humans who i had to separate in the end
because i didn't know they are someone who would hurt me and make me feel these
i hate humans
i am tired
tired to be alone and feel these and crying
but also very tired to see same humans too
same
same and same and same
and same results
and what those humans would tell me is because of me
because me not change anything
i don't want any to try to close to me who know they are not able to make me feel not lonely or happy in this life
for letting them know, i wrote the ideal person lists too
the things which would make me feel lonely, alone, scared anxiety
i wrote the things
i don't think i wrote something difficult things
because there is a person who does not like the humans and not need to communicate with them in anyway i believe
there is a person who does not like female singers and not listen to female songs too
and not like animations, gross animations
i don't mind dragonball and those kind of animations
but when males watching magical girl animations and so on, it just makes me feel so gross
but i know those are not bad things
Bad is, they try to close to me EVEN IF I AM SAYING THIS and then say, why those are bad, it is not bad, you are strange
I can not understand those kind of human's brain
I just cannot accept those creatures
i don't trust males mind and head basically too
they see those things in gross mind
i don't like humans who like watch strange movies too
which has dirty things in there
i don't like a person who would play games with others
and have a communicate with them
they just keep do those things which they like
but those humans also told me, why it is bad
I don't want them to ask me, that
I never said, it is a bad thing
I just not want like that person for not feel lonely
those humans always angry because me won't accept them
and call me crazy, mental, strange
i don't need those creatures to accept me too
i want only my person to accept me as me
but now confused so i will stop
i cried again because felt lonely and so on
but now i am okay
i will believe my person
and me like my person a lot
if they don't have to feel like me
i cannot think there is more lonely creatures than me when i feel these
i feel so very alone
i cannot trust anybody
also cannot have anything i want
nobody would like about me
in the way i want the person to like about me
it can be easy thing
to have a person who would get interested in me, it is just some days though
and have the like from them
but those likes are not the like i want
it is not
it makes me feel lonely more
to feel
they would give me a bit of like and like that feelings
and then i would like them
but bit by bit would know about them
and know those were not the things i wanted
which could fill me
fill my heart
i feel nobody knows how i could like about the person
i live with my honest feelings
and i am have been told that you'd be alone
because there is not like that person
not exist
even if there was, that person would want good thing and not you
others told me these a lot to me when they open the mouth
what is bad and strange
i am wanting a person to not feel lonely and be alone anymore in this world
not just friends who share the time sometimes
i want full things with my person
it makes me happy
i don't want my person to have a time with others
it makes me lonely and very scared
all the humans who i was with in the real world
all had others
each time scared when they go to another
and me be alone
when the person would not come to the school, i would be alone
always had to find my place where i can be
but i couldn't select the person in such small place
i felt scared always in me
anxiety about being alone
because those places are scary place for me
being alone means, others think me is strange
it was what i was afraid too
even if i would want one person who would stay with me since me was little
i couldn't have
all changed and gone, lied to me
but these are enough and whatever already
they think they can change the person anytime
the partner for the life
and it is a normal thing for them
and just think it was a good memories or like that
i never thought those
i didn't want to have any memories with the humans who i had to separate in the end
because i didn't know they are someone who would hurt me and make me feel these
i hate humans
i am tired
tired to be alone and feel these and crying
but also very tired to see same humans too
same
same and same and same
and same results
and what those humans would tell me is because of me
because me not change anything
i don't want any to try to close to me who know they are not able to make me feel not lonely or happy in this life
for letting them know, i wrote the ideal person lists too
the things which would make me feel lonely, alone, scared anxiety
i wrote the things
i don't think i wrote something difficult things
because there is a person who does not like the humans and not need to communicate with them in anyway i believe
there is a person who does not like female singers and not listen to female songs too
and not like animations, gross animations
i don't mind dragonball and those kind of animations
but when males watching magical girl animations and so on, it just makes me feel so gross
but i know those are not bad things
Bad is, they try to close to me EVEN IF I AM SAYING THIS and then say, why those are bad, it is not bad, you are strange
I can not understand those kind of human's brain
I just cannot accept those creatures
i don't trust males mind and head basically too
they see those things in gross mind
i don't like humans who like watch strange movies too
which has dirty things in there
i don't like a person who would play games with others
and have a communicate with them
they just keep do those things which they like
but those humans also told me, why it is bad
I don't want them to ask me, that
I never said, it is a bad thing
I just not want like that person for not feel lonely
those humans always angry because me won't accept them
and call me crazy, mental, strange
i don't need those creatures to accept me too
i want only my person to accept me as me
but now confused so i will stop
i cried again because felt lonely and so on
but now i am okay
i will believe my person
and me like my person a lot
I'm not speak any since some days ago
In the real world
On the internet
I'm just crying
Why do I had to be born
I cannot understand
I wanted Jason to be real
But only mask here
My heart hurts
Jason also feels this way
And always alone
Just killing humans
Very cold world he lives in
I cannot stop crying
If I don't be good, I cannot have what I need in my life
It is only the reason I always be normal with the one
I even not want to call it as my mother
I felt this way so many times
If I am able to run
I will run from here already
And not have to care about them anymore
Never involved with this
These humans
Even if they start to say or do something suddenly those times
I want to disappear
This is why I want to die too
Because not have to care their feelings
Since they don't
They treat me like this way
I thought I never want to go outside with it
Since she will leave me alone in the middle place and go
I felt very sad
I wanted to die so very much
But it will happens again if I am here and forgive those
She will never be sorry
She thinks me is bad too
I never want to talk
But I cannot have what I want and need that much if I do this
This is why it never can be ends
The parent and me
Because I cannot live without them
I hate it so very much
And made me feel bad about those too
Each time made her feel bad and what it told me is then buy them by yourself
Cook by yourself
I am not allowed to say what I want to say if I don't work
It sounds like that always
If you say something then work and go live alone
I didn't want to have like this parent
I hate them in me a lot
I felt sad about other things
But I cannot stop feel sad to see such world and know
I did know it
I did know it that there is such a world
But if I see it with my eye balls
I cannot say anything
I just feel too sad
Also I think it as me
Because if mom would be like that to me
Why she made me
Other humans too
If they would think me is strange or how I feel is bad then don't close to me from the beginning
After know too
Then never close
If they would feel me is annoying, troublesome, bad, should change
Then never close to me
Why they did those things to me
I really hate humans so very much
This world is too cold and cruel
I cannot forget the images from my head
How they could treat the little cat like that way
They are unhappy creature
But the humans who laughing too
They are so very unhappy
Only like that person would do those things
But I wouldn't do those
Even if I would not like the animals and feel jealous that they are cute
But I don't want to hurt them like the humans and I cannot laugh
I saw very sad world
Very very sad world
I watched humans who abusing animals
I felt mixed feelings
But I felt sad and almost cried
I hate humans
They are cruel
But me would be one of them
I will never have animals
Because I am not someone who can think about them more than myself in the end
They will care about them whenever they want
But they won't when they want and if the humans not want
Then from the beginning they shouldn't have them
Why they have to be treated like that way by the goss humans
I don't care the animals
But I felt they are same with me
They cannot run from there
There is no another place for them
Because the human have them
If I feel these everyday I didn't want them to make me
From the beginning
There was me also felt something
Like not only me
When I see the poor animals
But I felt sad to see
Because it is really a sad life to be owners by such human
When they don't know anything
Humans can do more things to them
But those animals cannot notice what happening to them
There is so many animals who is abused now
Right now too
How many animals are sad now
But don't know what they are doing to them
And they cannot live without such creature anymore
I'm scared to see the humans who laughing
While they treat them so bad
Why
Animals are more pure
They don't have anything bad
Babies and kiddos too
But adults would abuse them
Who still doesn't know what is bad and good
And destroy their life
Make them unhappy
Why they would make then
Please stop it
I don't want to see anymore sad things
I don't want to see cruel world
I am very sad
I cannot stop crying now
I shouldn't have watched it
I want to leave from this world
This world is too bad world for me to live
Which is helpless
There is not my world
Where I wished to live
I wanted to live in a peace world until I die
Not see those scary creatures in my life
Sad and cruel
Anymore
Then why about killers
It is because they are a sad creature from the start
But then the humans who abusing the animals have sad life?
This world is too sad world
Helpless
Cannot be helped
I'm scared
Only chichiko is not scary
i want to know a person who never did voice chat or like that in games
but most of humans who likes playing games, love to make game friends, chatting, talking with them
i don't like talk with strangers
but after all all humans wanting connection with others
and nobody is really alone
i really never met someone who really not connecting with humans
all connecting with others in someway
i think my person is massive misanthrope
then i can only think about Jason
but Jason won't come to me
i think we can get along well
maybe he is actually kind and would be kind to me
is what i want to think
i feel lonely
but i try to think about my person
i forgot to say
i forgot what i wanted to say
i want to see different person
i want to meet
and start a conversation and me not have to feel these everyday alone then
others and me is different
the thinking way and feeling way
but i think my person also not want me to play games with others that much
and do voice chat with them
and most of them could be males too
there is many females who would do those things
i think them as just bitchies
sadly game world is not the world where a female can play normally
since there is gross males a lot
if i was a male, i cannot like such a female and i will call her as a slut
there is many reasons why i won't do those things
1. I don't want to speak, and have nothing to say, even not need to say Yes or No also even on any chats in like that games too
Ignore
maybe that is only the reason
but also me is shy too
But really have nothing talk about any piece of bit to those strangers
even not want to talk about the games too
just read my brain and move
i think so when i played online games
but they won't
so i don't like online games
somehow some humans told me that it is unfair or me saying stupid things
why your person cannot play games or like that
i never said my person cannot play games
i just not like the humans who like talk with those strangers and have the communication with them
i don't think those are bad things
but i don't like my person do those things
it was good if my person just like puzzle games and so on like me
and just able to enjoy the online games with me
i could enjoy with my person
but maybe games are too meaningless thing in this world most
sometimes i think so
i don't want to live in the screen world
but i do
so im tired of those things
i want real more
something real
see the real nature is more good feel for me
but i want to play games with my person
next to next
superfamicon is good game too
i want my person to be next to me
its nothing fun to just staring this screen in my life
but most of humans who likes playing games, love to make game friends, chatting, talking with them
i don't like talk with strangers
but after all all humans wanting connection with others
and nobody is really alone
i really never met someone who really not connecting with humans
all connecting with others in someway
i think my person is massive misanthrope
then i can only think about Jason
but Jason won't come to me
i think we can get along well
maybe he is actually kind and would be kind to me
is what i want to think
i feel lonely
but i try to think about my person
i forgot to say
i forgot what i wanted to say
i want to see different person
i want to meet
and start a conversation and me not have to feel these everyday alone then
others and me is different
the thinking way and feeling way
but i think my person also not want me to play games with others that much
and do voice chat with them
and most of them could be males too
there is many females who would do those things
i think them as just bitchies
sadly game world is not the world where a female can play normally
since there is gross males a lot
if i was a male, i cannot like such a female and i will call her as a slut
there is many reasons why i won't do those things
1. I don't want to speak, and have nothing to say, even not need to say Yes or No also even on any chats in like that games too
Ignore
maybe that is only the reason
but also me is shy too
But really have nothing talk about any piece of bit to those strangers
even not want to talk about the games too
just read my brain and move
i think so when i played online games
but they won't
so i don't like online games
somehow some humans told me that it is unfair or me saying stupid things
why your person cannot play games or like that
i never said my person cannot play games
i just not like the humans who like talk with those strangers and have the communication with them
i don't think those are bad things
but i don't like my person do those things
it was good if my person just like puzzle games and so on like me
and just able to enjoy the online games with me
i could enjoy with my person
but maybe games are too meaningless thing in this world most
sometimes i think so
i don't want to live in the screen world
but i do
so im tired of those things
i want real more
something real
see the real nature is more good feel for me
but i want to play games with my person
next to next
superfamicon is good game too
i want my person to be next to me
its nothing fun to just staring this screen in my life
I don't want to be a person who would try to make others happy
Those humans end up just as a good person in everyone
And they are always feel lonely and alone after all
And not notice they are used
But they choosed to be used
I don't want to be
I will be useless creature for everyone and will have happiness
But I want to help my person
And want my person to be happy too
Sometimes I hate me that me do something for the humans who would make me sad or lonely after all
But I feel I always do something after all
I feel very complicated feelings
But I will not close to anybody not my person
But sometimes I could help some humans in my life
But I always choose
Not for random humans
Only the humans who deserve
i miss my person
i cannot live without my person
ω・｀)🐻
what are you doing
maybe in the space
we are meant to be together
i cannot stop eating very well (´・ω・｀)
i must be thin but
i feel bad (´・ω・｀)
i like my person
do you like me too
i think so
(´・ω・｀) you like me
and me like you
we liking each others
(´・ω・｀)🐻 happie
i cannot live without my person
ω・｀)🐻
what are you doing
maybe in the space
we are meant to be together
i cannot stop eating very well (´・ω・｀)
i must be thin but
i feel bad (´・ω・｀)
i like my person
do you like me too
i think so
(´・ω・｀) you like me
and me like you
we liking each others
(´・ω・｀)🐻 happie
I hate to hear her sigh
And the complains
After they go
Keep saying those alone an make a big noises sometimes too
I really hate how she is
Because she thinks all fault is others and not think because of her too
Who wants to be kind to someone who always angry and scare each time just ask something
I feel stress to hear those things
I want to be alone more
Me and chichiko and my person world is good
i thought what is this song first time
but when i listened 2 or 3 times, i could know it is a good song
just a bit sad song and seems the person in the music video is very lonely
but when i feel lonely it can be good song to see
kind of despair song maybe
but M shadows is like 🌞
he can never be dark human i feel
always smiling or smug? like that
so it is a bit funny that when he singing like this sad song
but maybe inside of the sadness and anger, he can express very well by his voice and singing way
this is a good song
i like the design of this music video too
the arts
there is japan thing i feel
it is nothing japan thing maybe
but i felt japan
and i like his jacket and tried to know what is that jacket some days ago
but i tricked (´・ω・｀)
it was not the colour green..
it was just blue one..
:I
it was a fake
but that music video one has really good colour
i like it
blue one is nothing good :I
and why i thought there is japan in this music video, because this scene reminded me about this tree
it was hard to find the picture
still not correct one from my head image
but when i listened 2 or 3 times, i could know it is a good song
just a bit sad song and seems the person in the music video is very lonely
but when i feel lonely it can be good song to see
kind of despair song maybe
but M shadows is like 🌞
he can never be dark human i feel
always smiling or smug? like that
so it is a bit funny that when he singing like this sad song
but maybe inside of the sadness and anger, he can express very well by his voice and singing way
this is a good song
i like the design of this music video too
the arts
there is japan thing i feel
it is nothing japan thing maybe
but i felt japan
and i like his jacket and tried to know what is that jacket some days ago
but i tricked (´・ω・｀)
it was not the colour green..
it was just blue one..
:I
it was a fake
but that music video one has really good colour
i like it
blue one is nothing good :I
and why i thought there is japan in this music video, because this scene reminded me about this tree
it was hard to find the picture
still not correct one from my head image
i like this design and the cookie monster
i like that it's eye balls are being creepy
like drug addict
but i don't like like this type of clock
i feel bad to hear tick tack tick tack tick tack
i like this shop, they are all 390 yen 🍭👾
but i couldn't buy
because the shipment was poo
when it won't took so much from me time, it could be good
i wanted this shop in my place
but only sapporo or like that place (´・ω・｀)
i would go there often i think like 100 yen shop
when i playing muso game, somehow i almost fall asleep
sometimes started to sleep too (´ぅωー｀)💤💤
🎮(´ぅω・｀)💡
and then throw the controller after saved the game and start laying and think i would rest a little bit maybe 20 minutes
and then 2 hours would pass (´・ω・｀)
i think that game is too boring
i have to do same thing over and over again
actually it is suits for me
i just play it for the trophies sometimes and kill the time alone
really boring game
but it feels good that i can beat the difficult enemies so easily already
since my level is like 680 or like that
sometimes started to sleep too (´ぅωー｀)💤💤
🎮(´ぅω・｀)💡
and then throw the controller after saved the game and start laying and think i would rest a little bit maybe 20 minutes
and then 2 hours would pass (´・ω・｀)
i think that game is too boring
i have to do same thing over and over again
actually it is suits for me
i just play it for the trophies sometimes and kill the time alone
really boring game
but it feels good that i can beat the difficult enemies so easily already
since my level is like 680 or like that
i still wearing this when i do exercise
i liked this t-shirt
this place was my favorite
a bit shining but it won't standing out
but that black dots ( 一一)
it is because of the brother
washed the clothes with his pencil
so those inc were on my clothes too...
i felt so bad after know it was the brother
mom told me that day, maybe your acrylic paint?
and i thought it might be
but it was not
it was because of the fag ( 一一)
if it was on my new clothes, i would curse
but this one is very old so
but still angry
and what he said to mom was, you should check before wash the clothes
or like that
what the fafjkleawjgheawlfkejalfk
so gross i think
won't say sorry to my clothes too
die
these days i keep looking at amazon and many other shopping place and see the things
it is the way to killing the time for me
and looking for something which i would want and have
then there is too many (´・ω・｀)
but it is fun to putput all of them in my cart even if i don't buy
🛒📦📦📦📦📦📦📦📦📦
just see those can be fun
because i am able to buy too
see what i am able to buy is fun i think
if i don't have moneys then i wouldn't look at them from the begining and just feel
(´・ω・｀) ahhah
but now its fun to look at the things
but i feel lonely so i think im trying to have many things now i feel
so it is a bit dangerous hobby
but maybe okay
because money is exist for using
exchange it with what i like
dreamy tickets
but this penguin one is very cute
it is me and chichiko following my person
but we would go to another road and my person have to looking for us
maybe cannot catch me
because i would go many places if i find something interesting things
🍭🐧🐧💨💨💨💨💨🐧
but i will follow my person most of the time or just will back to my person after those
but maybe i would be lost
(。´･ω･)🔎
🍭?(･ω･｀。) where are you
don't leave me alone
i think this headboad is very cute 🦔
and also the panda too so very cute
it is me and my person
it must be 🐼🐻🐼
it is what i need a lot hughug and cuddling
and sniffsniff my person and i will sleep 👾💤good feel
i think the rabbit one is cute too 🐇🥕
i like that birds too, the colour is very good
that yellow one is good too
those dogs and cat is not so cute
that mini bag
omg.. it can be chichiko's bag and we can have same bag 👾💡
🐣👜✨👜👾 and want to go to picknick with my person
They will steal me somewhat that company helping me to sell the things in there
So actually it would be 3000 yen
But sending price was 120 yen
So maybe 3400 yen? I can have 👏👾
But I cannot go now
I cannot talk to mom too
I don't want
So I will go alone in the night when it is pretty dark
(´・ω・｀)I hate her
But me is strong and can do alone
I organized nmy postman shop person box
This is my postman shop person box
All about packages and tapes and stamps and so on
I like have these special places for everything if I can and keep clean my room
But messy
I cannot out all the things like this way
I want to have only minion place or like that
And only frog place
Only books place
This is the key chain
I even don't know who is this character that much
Maybe I know the name of the game though
Surprised thing that somebody want like this thing with the piece
But this is what not selling in anywhere already so maybe that person is really just collector I feel
Especially if it was another country human, hard to get like this kind of things maybe
So maybe they think it worth more than here's humans
Such otakkie thank you 👏👾✨you otakkie
This will go to you
I don't know who is that though
I will call you a such an otakkie man 👏👾otakkie otakkie
Something trying to make me happy?
So these happened?
I don't know if me can deserve like this good happens a lot
I feel I get too good things even I just selling a trash (for me)
Because me being good?
So these happened?
Thank you very much something
I was down after strange dream
And I cut my arm because mom was very meanie yesterday like left me alone in the outside and go home alone
I was so very sad
I still not talk with mom since that time
But I'm glad like this happens to me
Thank you
I almost cried
I don't know if me can deserve like this good happens a lot
Suddenly
Thank you
I don't know who I should thank to though
I'm not believe God
But maybe something good Karuna brought me such happy thing?
When sold something I can get the moneys and I can get something I like more
I feel I get too good things even I just selling a trash (for me)
Even those are like trashes to me, to others, it is like a diamond
It makes me have a hope too
Because me can be like that good creature to somebody even if others think me is just a worthless fugly gross bitchy shxt
Me can be good good good creature and can have love and care from the person someday it must be
Me will be good and keep be good
I'm so glad
I am not good actually
But somehow got such good happens
Why
Thank you
Bright things
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