today mom went to a big supermarket with the brother

he wanted to go with mom and buy his snacks and sweets 

and he bought me my skin care lotion and one sweet 

mom selected for me, but he payed the moneys for the shopping

i am very bad to him for so long years 

and i hate him in me most of the time

sometimes whatever level

but those times, i can thank to him somewhat 

and it is good when he is kind to mom time too 

and do the things for mom 

and then for me too 

maybe he didn't want, but just mom tried to get it for me and got

because he just payed the moneys for the shopping

but he does the things for this house and buy something for mom sometimes too

so maybe he is a good son somewhat 

but very troublesome and have many problems too i think

but maybe this family, not so bad family 

at least there is somewhat warm in this family 

like think about each others 

i don't think about the brother so much sadly 

but mom and dad sometimes 

i don't hate so much elder brother too 

since the day he bought candycotton for me 🍭⛄✨

he back here from very far place that time 

i didn't want him to back home at all

because not wanted him to say noisy things or scare me

but he didn't do those things 

maybe because few days stay thing

also we didn't long time no see 

i always liked brothers when they gave me something

and they did know about those too

and still gave me those 

and i call them, poopie brothers in me 

and sometimes i said die and so on too

they have such a terrible little sister like me

but when they would be kind i would be good too

they always did meanie thing or scared me after all 

and i couldn't like them that much or not wanted to stay with them

and i was always with mom 

but i have good memories with the brothers

but somehow those are about presents 

what they gave me at my birthday or like that memories

but i was very glad 

when i was little, and when i hear the story from mom

because those times they still cared about me somewhat 

maybe me is bad that me be like this to them now though

i keep ignoring the second brother for so many years 

he will start to do meanie thing when we would close again too

so i need to keep ignoring 

i wanted good brother

who would play games with me and go soemwhere with me and keep protecting me

and maybe could go to sleep together too 

maybe it is not already brother and sister thing (´・ω・｀)

but i don't have any dirty mind to say those things 

i just wanted to have like that close person i thought 

and we'll be together forever since me was little

only oniichan stay with me 

i like it

but not with the brothers i have 

i am jealous that the humans who has good siblings 

and very friendly 

they are very lucky creatures i think

because they just should be with the sibling forever 

can stay in same house

oniichan will back to same house

everyday

even if he would go to somewhere 

but me want to go with oniitamu

even after mom left us alone, it means me is with my oniitamu forever 

i got such a good imagination in my head again

but there is not like that thing since the brothers are just unchicchi

and the elder brother sent dad father's day present this year too

i think last year, he didn't do those things at all 

and me was sad about mom 

that he didn't even say anything just thank you always or like that in mother's day and mom seemed sad a bit and i was sad about it

he should send mom something in her birthday 

and make mom glad and happy 

she can feel happy with small things too

just give a word would make mom glad 

but i think its always better to give something 

so i will give too 

even if it is not so expensive things 

but mom will want washing machine or like that (´・ω・｀) which i cannot get 

but i think i gave mom a lot of things nowadays even if it is not her birthday or like that 

and i am not sure what i should give at her bithday now 

because i feel i gave what she likes all already 

i wished if i could go to shopping alone and give something to mom 

but i still cannot i feel (´・ω・｀) maybe someday i could go alone 

and me be strong 

but i can go

if there is really a big reason to go alone 

like mom cannot go anywhere because got a cold or like that

i can have a courage to go alone now i think more than the past

if me could be thin, i think i can go alone more very well

that outside 

but i am scared still 

also maybe there is no reason to go alone at all too

it is nothing fun to go alone somewhere i think