but i can do anything
like hurting somebody
For helping the creatures who i like and care about
because we all need to do sacrifice something
but i will not do to the creatures who deserves good
good creatures
i don't mind to hurt the creatures who hurts me, disgusting me hard
i do really not mind
and i will have a happiness
i can use those creatures
until they are destroyed and die
i care about only my creatures who i like and care about in this world
not all the creatures
i am happy
when i can make the person who i like happy
like mom too
i just try to make the person happy who makes me happy
if mom was someone who perfectly not care about me any piece of bit and treat me bad and feel only cold from her, i wouldn't do anything what i've done to her too
what i do for her, means what she gave me in my life
to others too
even if mom is cold sometimes and i cannot feel care
mom didn't force me to do something or make me buy her presents for her birthday, mother's day and so on
i do those by myself always
because i have the feelings, i want to do it for mom
thank to mom and think want to make mom smile too
because she made me smile
about dad, i thank to dad too
somewhat
often hate him
but he is after all my dad
i am glad when i can make dad smile as well
he is someone who my mom likes somehow
they have their own connections which i never can know
i hate it
and feel gross
but i don't feel so strong anymore because mom is not mine and not too close too
but i think its gross thing to think they are close or like that too
and why mom be kind to dad but not me and so on and feel very sad sometimes
but i know why
but
okay
it is better, they are friendly more than bad friends
i feel sad if they everyday fight and fight
they don't do so much maybe
but so noisy about so boring things and do stupid arguments everyday is true
i am born from such parents